[update]

My surgery is done. It took about 2 hours. Im in a TON of pain, and I have an incredibly sore throat and no voice due to the breathing tube they put down my throat.(how pleasant!!!) I was ok with the whole process until one of the guys came in and mentioned that.

I haven't been able to really get up and move around much. It takes awhile for me to even switch postions in bed. I have slept pretty much the entire time. I get the results to my biopsy next week. Im trying to stay calm about that too.

I got beautiful flowers, visits, and calls! Thanks everyone!

I will update later when I can think, and actually sit up for more than 1 second at a time.

Update on an update....

So I was encouraged to take a shower....Yes, encouraged. So I had assistance (weird, im 22 and NOW just getting help in the shower...) Then I tried an attempt to go and get some fresh air(AKA: saying goodbye to some of my Alaska friends)...RESULTS: SICK to my stomache and me never wanting to get up ever again. Things seem to be going well. I got carebear cupcakes that will just have to wait.

[and so it begins...]

I head in for surgery tomorrow morning at 7:30 am.

I have about 40 cysts on my right ovary that they are going to remove and look at, and I have a growing mass on my right breast that they are going to do a byopsy on. Im trusting that everything will be ok and I thank EVERYONE so much for your prayers during this whole thing! I have some pretty great people in my life! I wish I wasn't dealing with this, but we will get to the bottom of it and figure it out! So for that, I am thankful!

I'll update soon!

[too excited to sleeppp!!!!]

yes, too excited to sleep...I cannot WAIT to be in Michigan!!! The minute I step off that plane I am heading to panera bread. Hello food I have craved for oooo so longggg!!!!!! I had to go through a whole summer without frozen lemonade...Let's be real!! If you want to see me asap your best bet would be to A. Be at the airport....or B. Just be at Panera...duh!
-Only 3 more days of work!! Trying to get everything accomplished, and get everything caught up from all the time I missed.
-I got a much needed surprise visit to my work with vitamin water in hand...(LOVE) oh, the little things :)
-Biopsy Thursday
-Surgery Friday[what is this not allowed to eat for a whole 24 hours before...they obvi. have NO idea who I am.]
yaaa....sounds like a fun week!  Hit me on the cellular... I will most defnintly be welcoming any fun...and visitors! I'm supposed to be attending a big benefit on sunday that my work is hosting and we have been working big time on it for quite awhile...basically consumed our day to day..my boss has high hopes for a quickie mend!! I might not be all there for it...who knows! Could be fun :)

[a struggle in the life]

Ok...these ecards are always really funny...well, to me...and Lori.

The sad thing is...at about 1:30am on Sunday I needed a little midnight snack...luckily there were a few couples...pj's and all having a little craving for some Ben&J's as well! Like minded people we are!!!! (2 bites and that was enough. Record breaking I may add.)

Happy Monday to all!

This is a big week! Thanks all for the support, encouragment and prayers!!! I am SO blessed!!!

[chhyeaaa....]

You guessed it...another hospital visit! (THE END IS NEAR!!!) I got some anti-nausea meds...hopefully this helps me out a bit!!!! Dr. tomorrow and then again on the 15th!  Updates to come!
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Update:
I got referred to a OB specialist. I saw him today, and he is AWESOME! I felt good about it right away! He was playing christian music in the lobby, awesome nurses and he was so informative!! I see him tomorrow, next wed. and then again next friday! I had an ultrasound, everything looked BUENO! My 20 minute appt. lasted approx: ooo 3 HOURS. I will be SO glad when this is over...and so will my bank account. No insurance=so when I have my hospital stay it will be about 20G's! ...it will be worth it though. Next Bonus: sorry Metro, but I am so glad to have gotten a new Dr.!!!!

[welp!]

Nothing new here!
Weekend consisted of 1 doctors appointment, a jar of applesauce and drinking literally 4 liters of water a day! Date night cancellation due to the fact im everything short of a good time right now!(I suck, I know!) and amazing converstations with some of my favorite people ever! I get to visit the bearer of no good news aka: Dr. next on August 12...why does that seem so far away??

Hmm, thats about it! no camping, no pictures, and not much else!! I did try to make a cool background for my computer and this is what came about it! kinda cool? kinda cluttered! (if you click on it, it gets bigger so you can actually see it!)

Happy Tuesday!

[umm WHAT?]

yes, this weekend turned out to be alot of fun...it exceeded my expectations actually. Little be known to me it turned into a camping trip! [not really my favorite thing, nor is it comforatable for me] but it turned out to be a good weekend!


Here are just alot of pictures...

I was pretty set...I had my Vera packed and my granola bars...that was about all I needed :)

The car ride got a little long, so I decided to take pics of everyone riding.

This pretty much made up for the whole 'camping' thing. I was in my mini-Vera Bradley Paradise!!! Life bags galore!!!!

             Just seeing what's out there!

At the Marina...I have my boat all picked out.

It's been SOOO long before I've gotten to see this girl! SO grateful to be able to spend sometime with her!

AND its been WAY too long since I've seen the beach!!!!!

I had to get dressed in the dark...I put my pants on backwards...I accidentally threw a bag of clothes into the fire and I've lost my mind :)

Last years camping trip went a little like this:

-We decide to go like 4 hours upnorth

-Mike gets completley lost...which=irritated mike.

-It takes roughly 7 hours to get there...[going in the opposite direction just doesn't get you there like you'd think ![Me and his roomate and his roomates girlfriend are just really enjoying that...seriously]

-We played endless hours of volleyball and bags and of course river tubing.

[Anytime I bring up the bad attitude he responds with "I just wasn't prepared"]

So in comparison, this camping trip went pretty smooth! no wrong turns OR cranky men (well...mostly)

[camping from last year-mikes not pictured. he may have been 1. taking the picture or 2. not talking to any of us for being mean?]

[the weekender]

New laptop=Happy Cole

Going out to the boat this weekend. Pictures to follow of this I am sure!

[P.s. Is it bad if someone tells you that you have been binge eating all day?? Good Grief!]

[just because.]

For old times sake... I was looking through old pictures, and I came across these- My crazy friends! I miss this! I haven't had the chance to cause any trouble with them as of late!!! or go downtown...or into a bar for that matter.

Nights like those call for mornings like these...I leave the bar with shorts that say "wild" We probably rode that bull 30 times...I felt like I had been shot in the legs! I felt the burn!

Soon enough, soon enough!

[p.s. im craving jersey junction!] YUM!

[blessed]

I am feeling so blessed latley! I can honestly say my life hasn't been better!  Everything is falling into place perfectly. Alot of the time its not how I pictured things, but God is definintly doing good work!

[Sidenote.]
Jewelery boxes...who though of them? they SUCK! They tangle your necklaces, you lose your earrings, and chances are you can't find both!
I came across this brillant thing...and I have yet to lose an earring or tangle a necklace! oh the little things in life!

Oversleeping = rediculous!  You'd think I need to start going to bed earlier! o wait...I do!

Decision 2010/2011 has been finalized (almost).  In effort to avoid losing too much I am sticking with what I've been doing.  You are supposed to have a sense of calm after making a decision (right?) and I do!  I'll go into more detail after I have my meeting today.

[Decisions, Decisions]

I hate decisions.
Tomorrow I have to make large decision. I think I have a pretty good idea of what I will do...but it is nice to get that big sign that makes you feel 100% confident that what you are doing is the right choice!
I need prayers!

Trust in the Lord with all your heart;
do not depend on your own understanding.
Seek his will in all you do,
and he will show you which path to take.
Proverbs 3:5-6

And now for a complete random twist:

First: I was talking to mike and we were talking about how certain songs bring you back to places immediatly...such as our first dance was to 'Lady in Red'. Sadly I was wearing a yellow dress...but whenever I hear that song I am immediatly brought back to that rainy september night in my yellow dress and frizzy rained-out hair.

Second: I used to make Bethany listen to snippits of songs in my itunes and give her 2 seconds to say the first thing that came to mind...pretty fun!

Third: I found myself playing that alone today...sad.

[attack of the miniature psycho!]

The little dum-dums wouldn't leave me alone...I was dying of laughter and they wouldn't stop licking me. GROSS!

Second:
The nice thing about taking time away from my job is the simple fact that I don't ever get to take naps,but now I get them! They are much needed and a good thing, usually. Today --not so much! I didn't intend to fall asleep...I had to be somewhere at 5pm.  I sat down for a second and woke up at 4:50. I hate the panic of realizing you are late...not to mention it take me about 10 minutes to figure out which planet I am on!

Third:

I really want a poloroid camera. I have no reason really, other than I think the pictures are cool! then I came across this. Why wouldn't I want it?...Barbie! The only way it would be better is if it was Disney Princess'... Sorry I had to let out my inner child...my daughter is going to be so lucky! I will never turn down playing barbies or dolls!!!

*4th of July weekend*

So far, so great on the weekend! I love the 4th! Started with movies...obviously!
Saturday night = date night! So fun!
Then the next few days are reserved for  some good R&R. I slept in until umm...noon....each day. great!

I even shared with my loverbutt, Kiki. She looks thrilled huh?











oh, random fact: my new favorite name is Cooper. yep...good story.